Looking back

I find myself looking backward a lot. For example, when I see a picture of my family from when we lived in Colorado, I think of how I really liked that place. It makes me long to go back. I really have to purposefully recall reasons why we left. Then, I usually move on just remembering about some of the good times we had or benefits of that place.

When you're thinking of how great something was and constantly looking back it's hard to see what you're walking toward. It's part of the reason we left Colorado. We kept looking back and longing for what was or what we had back here.

The moral of the story is that if you have divided interests, it's impossible to give 100%.

We are considering churches right now. The issue that's becoming painfully obvious in dividing interests between churches is this very matter. We look over our shoulder at each church thinking, if this one had that or that one had this.

Just like being lulled, I think this needs careful examination and a tough decision. I am having a hard time reconciling the spilt interest...