The last thing you see...

I am under the weather today - having an eye funk of pink fashion and a mild sore throat and stuffy nose. I couldn't sleep last night so I got up about 430 and started some laundry since we are so far behind with it since the move action started. Speaking of behind, there are tons of things i can't get done due to this mess, I can't wait until it's all finished. Anyway, in my grouchiness, my wife blessed me with some good advice. She said, "why don't you go take a nap!". In as nice a way someone says something without pushing the grouchy person into an argument possibly could. So, heeding the advice, here I am. Staring at the ceiling. One thing about this rent house is there's no escape. Nowhere that's quiet. So a nap with everyone jostling about is a bit unrealistic. However, I laid there staring at the ceiling.
For whatever reason my mind drifted and I started thinking about folks in a hospital where the last thing that they may ever see on this earth are ceiling tiles or light fixtures. It's really kind of a sad thought.

Then, thinking of mortality in general my thought is, what is the last thing you'd want to see? What would you want your last words to be? How would you want people to remember you?

I realize for some those questions are insignificant and they don't care. But, leaving a legacy is important to me. I want to have loved well and worked hard when I am done. The important thing with that thought is that it can't just happen 2 seconds before your last breath. You won't be able to say the right words and everything fall into place. It's the culmination of life events that shape those kinds of things. It's the everyday.

Then, thinking of how I spend my days reveals a lot of why I have a bit of angst in this arena. Perhaps I'm a little too worried about entertainment. Or, maybe too worried about my time and stuff. Maybe I am a little too quick to anger. Maybe too many things are about me.

So, what about you? How important is your legacy? Is it important enough to make a change today? I hope I do.