If you could pick your last day.

If you could pick the last day you live, when would it be? If you were told you were terminally ill and God himself said, pick a date in the relatively near future...what are the things that you would want to see?  have to happen? Wait until?

Sometimes I feel the impending doom as I have had a close friend die of liver cancer or have a step father in law get sick with a serious sickness. Suddenly, little pains and tingles strike a fear in you that your wife may be suddenly single with 9 kids...and you think of things like this. It might have something to do with being 42 as well! ;-)

I was awakened by a pain in a familiar tingle spot place thing tonight...I laid there thinking of the tragedy of the subject of this blog. "Everybody wants to go to heaven, nobody wants to die" is the song phrase that poors through my head. Deals start to formulate in my head and go up as prayers...I am struck with the question, when would I pick if a deal could be made. So, my "in the middle of the night" thoughts, become a public question.

My immediate thought for a date is after my youngest gets married. But, wait...what about his children? It would be nice to meet them on this side of heaven! And it goes on and on.
Would knowing my day of departure from this earth change what I did or how I do things? My answer is yes. That disappoints me though. I would hope that I would live everyday like I am not guaranteed I get another. Shouldn't we all. There are so many cliche sayings that are passing through my mind right now! Lol... But, I am starting to think that those sayings might have been said for a reason by someone experiencing what we will ALL face. Probably much sooner that our desired day. Maybe I should take the sayings to heart.

Things I should do better:
Listen more than speak
NEVER get angry
Love on my kids and wife more
Spend more time with my middle kids. It seems like I don't get one on one with them much.
Be more true to convictions
Smile instead of frown
Kiss my wife a lot more! (That's for my benefit, not hers!!!) ;-)
Be more bold with the Word of God!

As I was typing this list it made me wonder is anyone would ever put: rob a bank, kill someone, work more hours, get a project done, disobey their parents? Stuff like that.

Oh well, I am going to try to stop thinking and sleep! Good night.

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