There are so many things that have been occupying my mind that it kind of put me in a funk. I am struggling with the immaturity of the decisions where I work. I hate the house being in an “unfinished” state. I feel like I’ve given up so much to be here. I often wonder if I came here for the right reasons. My wife put it rather eloquently in an email to me recently while discussing the future of my older daughters. We have been discussing the idea of youth group and how it would fit into our life, if at all:
“Remember she's lost a lot coming here. You lost money and power, we've lost relationships. She's been very patient with a fantastic attitude. I'm proud of her.”
I wouldn’t say that I didn’t lose relationships as well…but I notice that wasn’t listed as my loss. It was kind of like she honed right in on my poutiness. I do miss those things though I really hadn’t put my finger on it. I miss them very much especially considering the things I am struggling with. If I was in charge, I wouldn’t struggle with these decisions and some of the decisions of my peers. I would have the cash to reconcile the house. I would be able to enjoy the costly things of the state we live in. I never even associated that. I never realized how much I do miss that…and I haven’t had a fantastic attitude. What terrific women God has put in my life. A wife that helps and knows me better than myself, daughters that are selfless and patient with great attitudes.
Isn’t it so easy to get trapped by the things of this world. Not only that, but they eat at your insides and affect your character. Scripture says that where your treasure is, there your heart is also. Jesus, help me to change my treasure.
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Hey, what happened to the weekend post?
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